Dear family and friends: We come to you with a great deal of fear right now. In the next few days, this whole cancer thing is about to become real. Karen begins chemotherapy this week. On Tuesday she has to have a port placed into her chest (in addition to one that had been placed in the surgery last August) then on Thursday she will spend 8 hours on a chemotherapy "drip" followed by another session on Friday. This cycle will repeat itself every three weeks.
We have no idea what her reaction will be. We hear about fingernails becoming brittle, sores in the mouth, skin becoming dry and taut...and more. We're scared.
A dear friend of ours gave us a book last night that has actually been quite encouraging and comforting called "Where God Is When It Hurts". The same friend also directed me to Jonah's prayer in Jonah ch 2. There is comfort in God's word.
Theologically we're struggling. Karen especially wonders: why pray, when God may already have a completely different result in mind? What's the point? We've heard some tell us over the years, God is God, and one pastor even said prayer is nothing more than a comfort to the person praying and has no bearing on what God will do, because He is Who He is. It makes Him sound pretty heartless. Do any of you relate to this struggle?
A dear lady at our church today is starting a whole group of prayer warriors to pray for us and to start delivering meals. The outpouring from family and friends has touched us deeply. We can only say thank you. It is true that when one part of the body is hurting, all the others hurt with that part.
We'll be in touch with all changes and developments. There are many we haven't heard from, who may be wondering: what do I say? We just want to know you're there praying. That's the best anyone can do.
In His Love
John Jacobsen
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment